If you don't have a problem with alcohol, you wouldn't have any trouble not drinking once a week as you put it. My guess is that like most people, you have similar issues. Sounds like they are worse while drinking. Maybe you are seeking attention, or just looking for an excuse to act out and blame it on the booze? Whether you're comfortable or willing to admit your an alcoholic, your acting the part. Doesn't matter if you do it once a week or daily. The same bad things can happen, and the consequences can last a lifetime.......if you have one. My guess is that you think this behavior is cool, and dig the drama. Any attention is good attention. You owe it to yourself to go to a couple of meetings, and say what your saying here. People won't judge you, but you may learn something. Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk