Interesting stuff. I've been a regular gym member for 2 years - the first year was spent dropping from 300lbs to a somewhat more skinny 160lbs. This year (the last 8 months) I bulked for 4 months and I'm now cutting. 195lbs at about 15-16% bodyfat, aiming for 8% in the near future.
The realization's definitely dawning on me that to get to the size I want to be it's either:
a)10 years natural training, gym twice a day, no life
b)Needle up the [censored], get to look good and take care of my degree/job/family
The other thing is - I'm going to Japan for a year's exchange this time next year. This is going to sound selfish, awful, shallow, etc - but as you may have guessed from the '300lbs' part, it's only in the last 12 months I've been anything close to passably attractive. I actually had to have my man-boobs surgically removed as they'd become girl-boobs - I was seriously considering doing a couple of cycles of test-e/tren/dbol with the appropriate PCT, then leaning off with clen to get huge and ripped for my time abroad. I want to enjoy what's left of my youth and make up for lost time.
Does this make me a bad person?