Dear Micky,
I am not well acquainted with you, but I have a mother, and I feel your pain. We may be separated by physical distance and cultures, but we are bound by the same frailness and beauty of humanity. It must have been a tragic day for you.
None the less, there is a modicum of comfort in knowing that her passing was within your expectation and not an abrupt shock, though it would do little to mitigate your loss of a loved one. You, me, and everyone else on this planet, we are born to live and none of us would escape the eventuality of passing from the life we now know. I have always made it a point to tell those around me, not to fret about things we cannot change, and do our best for things we can. We cannot change the fact of death, but we can, while living, make each day count for us and those around us. I am certain that your mother lived her life well, and she would continue existing in memories of her loved ones. I am sure that she would understand and appreciate your grief, but she would want you to pick yourself up and continue your journey with your head held high and with courage, knowing you did all you could.
Death happens when the physical body succumbs, but I have never heard of the human spirit dying. Your mother has simply transcended from being a physical being you could see and touch and hear, to a spiritual being with whom you would be united with again one day.
Be strong Micky, and be the man that she would want you to be. If you need any assistance, here we are, some of us still have mothers, some do not anymore, but I am sure that all of us would understand your grief and reach out to you.
Above all, RWG is a community about humanity. Oh yes, we talk about gen and rep watches quite a bit I concede, but the greatest gain here is not that 1:1 super rep you could purchase from another member, but how you make really good friends and know superbly wonderful people in here.