Wow, that's some story.... I really feel sorry for you, man.
But stop the booz and the meds as of now!
This will only take your life into more drama. Concentrate on your family, health and job. These are the most important things in life.
I think at this moment in your life the modding and 'collecting' takes away of that. Besides, the moment you say you are in business people expect you to work as a business man - rep business or not.
Maybe you need to take a step back for a while and don't take new orders, handle the pending ones and get your life back on track.
Take care!