I have noticed this post rather late and what I would have said is pretty much what others have already done!
if it is any consolation, you are not alone and if you ask most people you meet how they feel, the answer would a very much be similar to yours! There are those that put on a good show but deep inside them, all have a story to tell but prefer to be in denial or maybe it is just a way to cope! You have done well to get it off your chest! Bottling up is not always the answer!
I too, find that almost everywhere I look, there is something not right! It is sometimes all the little things that just add up and before I can blink, I get into an emotional melt down! It ranges from a leaky tap that I have attended to several times, the car playing up after having spent my half years savings to get right, the hot water boiler just giving cold water soon after the warranty has expired, someone I care for in hospital, etc,,,,I therefore look for something to cope, but then before I know it, I have noticed that there isn’t an angle that is right in the 360” circle. Then there is the current world situations! Where does it end? I often ask is it me or is it just life? It feels like every small move is a climb to Everest!,
I then say to myself I would rather have things the way they are than for them to be worse!!! Period!! Coincidentally, today is the 8th anniversary of my fathers passing and in his last years of life I was unhappy, but looking back I was happier then than I am now missing him today!
As Timelord has said, hang in there and all I will add is that no matter how dark it gets, midnight will turn to dawn and then the sun will rise! Enjoy your lovely collection and just add or trade to your liking! Life is there to be enjoyed! Follow the sun!