Hey Robbie,
Although I don't know you personally, I've been on here enough to know that you're a key player on the board, and a sound bloke with it
I hope you can get yourself sorted out - life has a weird way of going about helping you learn about youself and sometimes it takes something bad to do it, but it's clear that you've found some more self-awareness from what you said in your earlier post. It's strange how we all carry on as normal until something strikes a chord and makes us think back!
Enjoy every day for the little pleasures it brings and don't stress about the big picture, that's my way of living in the moment. My gran always says there's a path mapped out for you in life, you just don't know what it is or what it will bring yet!
Keep looking on the bright side as, as mentioned above, a positive frame of mind works wonders
Anyway, I don't want you to think I'm preaching or telling you things you already know so I'll shut up now, but will say that I wish you well and that your return to health is speedy!