i know that it's quite weired to share things like that on a forum, six months ago i would never had done it, but i really feel like [censored], and i'm quite drunk, so forgive me for my open thread...i know that for example brockelhorst who is a great friend would drag me out for a beer but he's abroad....
Just lost my first patient by suicide this afternoon, and i feel kind if half way guilty, spechless, there is nothing to do...
I knew this would happen one day, comes with my job, but it's very hard to handle, i never imagined it to be that hard! Even if you work years and years knowing that psychiatrie brings this kind of things...you feel like hell.
it's was like assisting a 8 months long suicide, doing everything you can to prevent it...but you can't....
i really don't know what to say,
just saying it.
maybe just a way to make him immortal.
thx.