It is really surprising how hard "change" can be. As I get older I seem to notice how much things or places actually mean to me. Whether it be a pizza shop, barber, or drinking establishment, when they close their doors year worth of experiences, memories and friendships go with them.
Several years back they opened a new arena in Toronto, and Maple Leaf Gardens closed its doors for good. I had attended hundreds of sporting events and concerts there over the years, each one with its own story an memories. The building is still there, and every once in a while I walk up there on my lunch hour and just mull around the place. Its amazing how the memories of days gone by come flooding back, just by being there. Good friends, and good times. Of course, life doesn't change, it just goes on. I still go to concerts and games, and still have fun with friends. But, when something goes away, it take a part of you with it, and usually that was a part of your youth. Happier times
Sorry to hear about your loss Lan, its just time to make new memories.